I started working full time again and thought I was getting everything together. I still have pain in my belly, I go to the bathroom a lot, and I haven't slept through the night in ever!
I feel like the normal stress of a full time job that everyone has, with the sleepless nights and sporadic eating is just too much to deal with.
I went to behavioral health and they upped my meds and sent me to a therapist. They also want to see if I am lacking in any nutritional values.
I'm just saying; a year ago, I had my reversal done. I still feel that I am recovering and I don't know when I will be done recovering...
At least work is extremely supportive.
panic attacks suck. I have severe social anxiety so much that I refuse to even answer the phone. I have to work myself up for DAYS to be able to call anyone back. I was on paxil which made me violent and mean, but then switched to prozac, then to zoloft. prozac and zoloft seem to zombify me and basically work the same, but at least I'm not crying all of the time for literally no reason! I don't know if there's any drug out there that can make me not crazy.
ReplyDeleteI am amazed that you can work a full time job, esp. if you have panic attacks! When I had jobs, I would always feel that people were watching how well I worked, so I would spend all my time off of work trying to figure out how to improve the company. I also refused to take breaks and would just work non-stop. Ahh! No one appreciated anything so I just quit the various jobs after noticing a trend, and now I get to work at home! Yay!
You need to put stuff up on etsy - people love that stuff! ESPECIALLY for Christmas. :D Go Betsy Go! You're amazing for everything you've gone through and are still going strong.